hi - i released a song on friday, may 29th called "everything's good" -
coincidentally, that was the day that the worldwide protests sparked by the horrific death of George Floyd started.
I decided immediately that it was not the time to promote myself or this new song that, at first glance,
reads as everything is good. a-guess what?! everything's NOT good! at all!!! so many things are wrong right now.
we're finally facing the racism that this country was built on and has been plagued by.
we're living through the worst and biggest pandemic in generations.
we've got a morally deranged sociopath in the highest office in the country... i could go on and on. clearly,
not the best time to promote a song with such a name. obviously, the song is not about everything being good
(that wouldn't be very phil of me now would it), but still i felt uncomfortable about promoting myself because of the name
and because of the VASTLY more important things going on in the world.
its been a month and a half since then, and i've dug myself into quite the mental hole about this.
i haven't been taking care of me ole' head like i should. i am very lucky and privileged to have a
large team of incredible people that all believe in me and in this project and work very hard with and for me.
i've been so supported by them and by all of you listening to all the shit i do and caring about what i make. i
appreciate all of you more than you know. i want to share my work with you, i want to share this song that i wrote
in may of 2019 and spent a whole YEAR working and reworking and hating and loving and reworking again until may 29th when
it was finally released. so, i've decided to start sharing my work again with you. i've repackaged the song with my other
song "living with no one" under the title "everything's (not) good"
i've put together this page on my website with resources
and links that i think are important and helpful so that we can continue to educate ourselves and advocate for BIPOC and be an
effective ally in this important and unprecedented time in history. i've also added some links and resources on other things
and issues that i personally resonate with and feel need to be seen.
i don't feel ok - every day is a toss up between if i
will feel just 'fine', or feel like a large pile of poo. i feel scared and drained and at times hopeless. i don't want to
feel like this. i want to get out of my own head and do what i can to help. i think what i can do best and most
effectively is speak up for what i believe in and for what is right, educate and have uncomfortable conversations
with friends, family, and followers, and continue to be a fuckin dweeb and hopefully make people sing and laugh and
get through a few moments of their day.
i don't know how to end this rant. i hope you're all staying safe, being
compassionate and kind, learning new things and having uncomfortable conversations. i hope you're looking out for
your mental health, kissing your cats or dogs or lovers or fish or whatever. i really hope you're gonna vote. i
hope we can gather at shows soon and sweat all over each other.
ok that's it, thanks.